Update
So I haven’t written in forever. I need to keep this up!!!
I realized a few days ago that OA has taken away my desire to restrict my food in order to lose weight. That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t like to lose a few or be thinner, but the thought of not eating around three meals a day just seems ridiculous. And when I’m hungry, I can’t imagine ever not eating. I don’t know how I did it, but I guess when you are sick you are willing to do anything to cope with whatever you are dealing with. Starving was my coping mechanism.
But because of this I am gaining weight. Trying to think of it as that’s where God wants me to be, but my stomach is getting more “cushiony”. It used to be pretty lean, but I have a tiny pouch thing now. Not too happy about that.
I have to admit though – I’m not really eating healthy foods. A lot of it is microwavable or fried. And a lot of carbs and peanut butter. And I don’t exercise.
